FALL IN ME

Dear God,

Itz ME, I'm tired! I think I want to take a walk away from religious folks, talks and dusks. I'm trying hard to change, break off my past, please my pastor, my parents especially my dad, my family and even my friends yet everything I do to be better run through dales that seem to empty me of my efforts and I have almost nothing to give away to the people that expect so much from me. My efforts seem minimised and my efforts maximised; daddy's eyes are blind to my good but enlarged by magnifying lenses when I do wrong-words from his lips further affirm what the eyes have seen and everyday I'm breaking, going through scourges and loosing myself.

This is my verdict:
I want to live for me, I don't want to please anyone no more but me. I don't care if I make mistakes or not, I just want to please me. Thank You for the times You were there but I think it's time to be me and do all of the nasties I've been kept from doing.

Signed:
ME!

I get a phone call from a buddy and he goes, "hey bro, thank for your words to me last night, those words struck like spear and kept me from hitting on the bootie at the club. I'm changed and it's cos of you". I replied, "buddy, it's beautiful the view you have of me from your vantage point but please get a life, go be you cos I'm changed too-I'm not living for no God or anyone else. I need a break". Then he says, "its too late for both of us, u're going no where cos from all indication, you've become a tree with garlands and fruits to grace. I've been down that road and it's too late to die or fain". I banged the phone on him, "that's enough" I said. Several mails dashed in to acknowledge what a saviour I've been to them.
I ignored them mails and began to make ill decisions that were perfect for me but each time I was to fall, something wedged me from falling hard. I got frustrated trying to be a mess so I cried out to God, "what do you want from me?

 GOD: Come to think of it, I asked you to trust IN ME with all your heart...IN ALL YOUR WAYS acknowledge me and I will direct your path. Baby, I don't mean your perfect and righteous ways; I'm talking about your rotten and immature ways and I will direct you aright. In your letter to Me, you acknowledged me by letting me know you will give up on Me and I swore by MYSELF to direct you back on track lest you dash your foot against a stone"

Me: you've taken all from me and everything I hold dear. What again? ????

GOD: I need you as rough and messed up as you are. I love u more than I love ME; CAN'T YOU SEE??? I just need you to be IN ME, give up on life IN ME... I am the ark of the Covenant; Noah was in the ark in the midst of the turbulence of the law of sin and death at the time but didn't drown cos he was 'in the ark'. Baby, all I need from you is when you fall, please FALL IN ME!

I have suffered rejection, betrayal, low self esteem, pain and hurt. It feels good to get that reassurance that God stil CARES, and He's got my back through it all.

Credits: Deinma George